My Mounjaro Journey Week 12 - 100 Days Alcohol Free
Hi all
So my weight loss slowed this week to just half a pound. I knew it would happen at some point but it still feels a bit like a failure. I need to get over it though, because there's going to be weeks when I lose nothing at all or may even gain.
We get absolutely obsessed with the scales but it's just one measurement in a varied journey. If someone said to me, would you rather weigh 15 stone but feel healthy and fit into a size 12 or weigh 9 stone but still have a bad back and be a size 22, I'd choose the heavy option every time. So why am I worried about what the scales say? Years of conditioning is why.
Ever since I was about five or six, I've been brought up to be fixated with my weight but no one really says anything about your health; well, except my GP every time I had an appointment. My GP would put every ailment down to my weight, even things like warts! But, now I'm older and wiser, I realise that most ailments are linked to your weight. I had my gallbladder removed due to gallstones, I've had an abscess surgically removed from my back and I almost died due to Covid; all because of my obesity.
I can remember having a school medical when I was about six where the doctor told my mum I was 12lbs overweight. Imagine that, six years old and nearly a stone overweight already. He told her to make sure I didn't gain any more weight and it would even itself out as I got older, but it didn't. I was a secret eater and would butter bread to eat alone in my bedroom. I still love bread; I could live on toast and cake if push came to shove. I used to finish my brother's and sister's dinners and steal their sweets then deny any knowledge of it. I was a compulsive eater but there was no help for the greedy. If I was anorexic or bulimic, the NHS would've been falling over themselves to help me but overeating wasn't viewed as an eating disorder.
Over the years, I've been on diets galore. Sometimes successfully, most times not and even when they've worked I've put it all back on again with interest. I tried Slimming World but I couldn't cope with being able to eat unlimited foods. I can remember being told that crumpets were free because "no one can eat more than two". Yeah right, challenge accepted! Needless to say I failed miserably on green and red days. I did the Mayo Clinic Diet, the Cabbage Soup Diet, the Fat Units Diet, Rosemary Conley, Weightwatchers and any fad diet I could find. To be fair, I did well on Weightwatchers' ProPoints plan and on Rosemary Conley's low fat diet and exercise classes: losing about three stone each time, but the food noise always gets loader and eventually wins.
Constantly gaining and losing weight for years and years is the reason I'm obsessed with the scales and I suspect most overweight people are the same. The SheMed community would certainly support this theory. I don't want to feel like a failure so I need to focus on non-scale victories such as dropping a dress size and feeling fitter. I also need to remember what it's like to be heavier, the feeling of my clothes digging into so I have to buy a bigger size, my back hurting every time I walked a short distance. Hopefully, that will keep me motivated.
Although I'm disappointed with the weight loss, I have hit an important milestone this week: 100 days alcohol free and I'm really pleased with myself; especially as it's been more difficult lately because we've been having some lovely weather. There's nothing nicer than sitting in a pub garden, or your own garden for that matter, with a glass or two of rosé but I haven't succumbed. I've actually found a really nice 0.5% cider called Stowford Press which tastes just like the 4.5% version. Before you say "but 0.5% isn't alcohol free" let me tell you some of the foods that have a similar amount of alcohol in them: bread, yoghurt, mustard, soy sauce, bananas, fruit juice and soft drinks, so 0.5% proof is equivalent to foods we eat every day. Even if I drank three litres of 0.5% beer in an hour, I wouldn't feel in the least bit tipsy, so it's totally allowed and only 29 calories for 100ml. Win, win.
I'm going on holiday next week so it'll be interesting to see if Mounjaro will keep me on track. I've had food noise this week and haven't had as much appetite suppression as usual. I've actually felt hungry more often too. I haven't eaten more, as I count calories, but there's definitely been more willpower involved and the little voice in my head that talks about biscuits and chocolate has definitely been louder.
Time for this weeks stats:
Mounjaro dose - 5mg
BMI - 38.4
Total loss - 1 stone 8lbs
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